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The majority of the time, too, Eliezer isn’t thinking of abandoning his father, but of how to keep from losing him. Whenever Eliezer thinks his father has died, Eliezer loses the will to live. This is especially clear in the last chapter of the book; Eliezer doesn’t even tell us about his last experiences in Buchenwald because to him, nothing mattered once his father had passed away
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