Take note of the OpOpportunities for communication you passed up, how it felt when you couldn't communicate, how others reacted toward you. Share your experience and to discuss what you noticed about your behavior, others behavior.
i felt like i had done a great bad thing. i realised this because i almost found accusing myself over the matter. i noticed that i had developed a habit of not forgiving to myself. others took me for granted, they saw me as useless form them onwards.