The chapter begins with the author narrating her experience with her big brother Ryan. Ryan was more than a brother to her, as he constantly played with her, and he was her best friend. As an adolescent, he became her protector, and trained her on how to handle children who bullied her. These two were very close, however, when she was twelve years old, her brother developed a mental condition which led to his demise as he took his own life shortly after. He got access to a handgun, and in his condition, he ended his life.
The couple of years that followed thereafter were traumatizing for her, given that she was the one who found the body. She went for therapies, however, she found herself obsessively planning out her husband, and children’s funerals as a “sick coping mechanism” due to fear that they would die too (Hollis, 2018). After a couple of years, she understood that it was not in her best interest to concentrate on the trauma, and the way she felt about the tragedy. She had to look for a silver lining, that is, the good which comes out of the negative experiences as well.